Syre Atries (
removeimpurity) wrote2012-10-03 03:39 pm
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Seventh Incision [Voice/(Accidentally) Written]
[Voice]
[Syre's voice tonight is calm -- emotionless, even -- as she broadcasts over the journals.]
To all that I may have interacted with during this most recent of Shifts: let it be known that the name Ariadelle Estriet [--hatred creeps into her voice for that brief moment, dark and bitter--] is one that I prefer not to be addressed by.
I would not have my image sullied by taking on the name of a deserter.
[The feed stops shortly after that.]
[Written; Accidental]
[Much, much later that night, a series of quick notes show up. It seems Syre has mistaken her broadcast journal for the one she normally keeps research in.]
-- Energy expenditure in creation of all constructs 1.5 times normal. Care needed to avoid exhaustion.
-- Still unable togive life toanimate constructs for more than few seconds at a time. Related to power limits of enclosure(?).
-- Research required into alternate means of animating constructs. Must favor alchemic/magical practices; technological research too time-/resource-consuming.
-- Additional research required to grant construct minor magical/alchemic abilities; useful for construction of potential assistant(s).
[Syre's voice tonight is calm -- emotionless, even -- as she broadcasts over the journals.]
To all that I may have interacted with during this most recent of Shifts: let it be known that the name Ariadelle Estriet [--hatred creeps into her voice for that brief moment, dark and bitter--] is one that I prefer not to be addressed by.
I would not have my image sullied by taking on the name of a deserter.
[The feed stops shortly after that.]
[Written; Accidental]
[Much, much later that night, a series of quick notes show up. It seems Syre has mistaken her broadcast journal for the one she normally keeps research in.]
-- Energy expenditure in creation of all constructs 1.5 times normal. Care needed to avoid exhaustion.
-- Still unable to
-- Research required into alternate means of animating constructs. Must favor alchemic/magical practices; technological research too time-/resource-consuming.
-- Additional research required to grant construct minor magical/alchemic abilities; useful for construction of potential assistant(s).
[voice | Filtered: Unhackable]
[ Meanwhile Helios is just going to bake the best cookies ever and make some tea. ]
[voice | Filtered: Unhackable] -> [Action]
[Roughly 45 minutes later, there's a soft knocking at Helios' door.]
[Action]
Come in come in! I made some cupcakes and cookies. I-I hope you don't mind, I wasn't sure what you'd prefer. [ A warm smile as he moves a little off to the kitchen. ]
I'll, um, get some tea started for us. Do you have any flavor in mind?
[Action]
[She looks down at Luminair, smiling warmly, if a little tiredly; then she picks up the little dragon much like one would pick up a kitten, and pets his head lightly.]
And, really, any treat sounds good. I've been wanting sweets all day.
[Action]
[ Helios gives them both a warm smile. And he heads off into the kitchen. Luminair's tag wags happily as Syre pets him. He'll give her hand a nudge urging her to keep petting. ]
Well I've got plenty in this house that's for sure! Do come in! Have a seat, relax, if there's anything else I can get you in the meantime, don't hesitate to ask.
[Action]
[She keeps petting Luminair's head, partly because the little dragon wants it and partly because she wants to; it's fun, don't judge her.]
[She follows Helios inside, closing the door behind her, and settles down on a chair, still petting the dragon.]
[Luminair, you are the best company and you have the best owner.]
...you wouldn't happen to have red velvet cupcakes, would you?
[Action]
[ Helios looks over at her with a smile. He had gone out after their talk to the shop to get exactly that. He nods and brings out a plate of the Red Velvet cupcakes. ] I-I figured you might want those. So, um, I made them just for the occasion.
[Action]
You've been sent by the Gods, I'm sure of it! [And oh, how happy she is now. She pauses her petting of Luminair just long enough to shift the little dragon on her lap.]
[Action]
Ah, Luminair. I can certainly count of you to eat my cooking. [ Helios beams. ]
[Action]
Certainly not all of our meetings are because of them. There's got to be some divine intervention, for me to have been so blessed in getting to know you.
[Action]
No, certainly not. We definitely have to meet on better terms in the future though. [ Helios colors slightly at the compliment. ] Ah. N-No. I'm just...trying to help, is all. No blessings needed for that.
[Action]
Yes, definitely. Better terms would certainly be less stress inducing!
[She smiles warmly back at Helios, taking another bite from her cupcake.]
You've been more helpful than anyone I've ever met, Helios. Compassionate and kind... Much more of a gentleman than any knight in my homeland. [A faint flush rises to her cheeks, and she averts her eyes.]
[Action]
[ Then he'll turn back around, his face much less hot and more normal looking once again. ]
[Action]
[Her face, on the other hand, is still a bright pink.]
And I thank you for that, Helios.
[Action]
He looks away, his own face feeling hot very briefly again. ] It-it's no trouble at all Syre. I-I enjoyed do it, s-so you don't have to thank me for it.
[Action]
There needs to be more people like you, not just in my world, but in general... so that, when I return home, I'd... actually have someone to return to.
[Action]
Ah w-well...people can change. [ He smiles a little more. ] But maybe you'll f-find someone like that back home? I-I hope you do at some point. You, um, deserve that much at least.
[ Everyone deserves to have someone dear and close to them. ]
[Action]
... I hope so, too. [She looks a little sad as she smiles back.] Though... I don't think anyone would compare to you.
[Feel free to take that any way you want, Helios.]
[Action]
I-I don't know about that. I-I'm not all that special or-or anything of the sort. [ He is so being modest now. ]
[Action]
[Her face flushes, and she scratches her head nervously.]
And you always will be.
[Action]
[ Oh gods. How does he even approach this subject. He is so very terrible at this sort of thing. He will set her cup of tea down and take a seat across from her then. He shifts, visibly uncomfortable and otherwise trying to put into words what he wants to say. ] Um. By that, you-you mean...
[Action]
...I suppose the best way of approaching it is... a rather wordy one... since my arrival, nearly six months ago, you've been nothing but kind and understanding with me. Even... Even when the Malnosso have done their damnedest to break our friendship.
[She still remembers the Phanto Mask incident. It eats at her, reminds her that there's always the chance that she could harm someone without meaning to.]
But, in spite of that, you've been so patient, so forgiving, and...
[She falters a moment. Should she get straight to the point, or...?]
... I... I suppose what I'm trying to say is...
I... I have feelings for you, Helios. Feelings that I've... never really had for anyone else.
[Action]
He bites his lip and looks away, guilt and apology written all over his face. ] Syre I. I'm sorry because I-I can't. [ He blinks and sighs. Love. It was always so hard to talk about it. It never gets easier but...it at least it helps to talk about it. ]
I can't r-return those feelings. It's not you. It's-it's me. [ He brings a slightly shaky hand to his chest. ]
[Action]
[Too soon; it's entirely too soon, having had her heart torn by the damn Shift mere days before... and now the Gods would go so far as to tear the one thing she held onto away from her?]
[She has to fight back tears, and the all-too-fresh memories of the end of that Shift; of Lupin explaining everything, of sobbing uncontrollably in his arms...]
[When she speaks again, her voice is soft, her breath shaky. Composed... she has to stay composed.]
...is... is it because of that spell? [The same reason why his hands were so cold to the touch, the reason he had been so hesitant to dance with her at first, at the Masquerade...?]
[Action]
It. It is, yes. [ His own eyes burn a little at the remembrance of that night. Helios bites his lip and shakes his head. He lets out his own shaky sigh and is silent for several moments. The silence is deafening and he honestly wishes that it didn't come down to this. ]
It...took someone very dear and close to me, S-Syre. She. She and I were...were soulmates. And-and when she passed away I. I couldn't...I can't. Not anymore. Not...not ever again.
[ He stifles a small sob of his own because the admission still takes so much out of him, even now. Love was one of the most basic and needed emotions and he, he couldn't feel that way about anyone anymore. It hurt on such a fundamental level at times and it caused things like this to happen. It wasn't fair to her or to anyone else for that matter, especially not to himself. ] I-I'm sorry.
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